My thoughts on Mother's Day

I have a soft spot in my heart for Mother's Day (MD).  As a woman that has gone through lots of infertility treatments, I know just how sucky some MDs can be.  A few years back before getting pregnant with Noah, we were in a ward where babies were being born like crazy.  Every Sunday in Relief Society women would share good news moments and it seemed like they were always about babies..."I found out I'm pregnant!"..."We found out we're having a little girl/boy!"..."I only have 2 more weeks to go!"...etc, etc... I hated this.  I really hate good news/bad news moments sharing in Relief Society.  Still to this day I hate them.  I remember one Sunday I just wanted to punch someone in the face so I just got up and left in tears.  The MD before I got pregnant with Noah, I knew I wasn't up to it, so I skipped church all together, just because I didn't want to hear about everyone else's adorable children, their pregnancy stories and how grateful they were to be moms, the "stand up if you are a mom, or just all the women {to make people like me not feel left out}" after sacrament meeting to get your MD gift from the bishopric.

Now that I am a mom, I still ache for those that cannot get pregnant, or have not yet had children.  I have an aunt who after years of struggling with infertilty, doing rounds of ivf that keep failing, finally adopted.  I know the decision must have been difficult to adopt, but they are the proud parents of two cute little boys that keep her on her feet, can drive her crazy, but most importanlty are the joy of her life... just like my two little boys.  I know that if our ivfs kept failing, eventually we would have adopted as well, just to have a family.  But all of this is so expensive!  IUI, IVF, adoption, etc... it is not cheap!  It is just not fair that something that should happen so naturally is so physically, emotionally and financially draining.

Why?  Why does this have to happen to the best of the best?  The people that actually truly want children so badly?  And yet there's babies being born left and right to mothers that should not be moms!  Why?!  I don't know.  But I do know that our Heavenly Father knows our challenges.  He knows our struggles.  He knows that our trials only make us stronger.  I think that through faith and patience that the desires of many women that truly want children, that eventually it will happen....one way or another. 

So, as I sat there in church yesterday watching those cute little children sing out to their moms "mother dear I love you so" I thought about how grateful I am that I have truly been blessed with two miracle boys.  I thought about all those women still aching to be a mother.  I thought about all of the dumb comments that people made to me when we were struggling, trying to get pregnant...like, "I hope you're not jealous, but I'm pregnant."  "Maybe you just need to relax and you'll get pregnant."  "Do you think you would want to come to this baby shower, even though you haven't been able to get pregnant yet?"  etc... you get the idea... I thought about the time when I thought to myself during one of Noah's crazy fits... "this kid cost us how much money?!"  And I realized, again.... that being a mother is the most difficult and rewarding job and  I am so thankful that my Heavenly Father answered our many prayers and blessed us with children. 

Some days I tell Grant that I will go to work for him and he can stay home with the crazies - or just the one crazy - because man, it can be rough.  But I have to remind myself how badly we wanted these angel babies and how blessed I really am.  I am beyond grateful to be a mother.  I hope that women who are struggling with infertility are able to find comfort through the hard times.  I hope that every woman that is trying to become a mom can have a child.  I hope that others can find it in their hearts to comfort those who are struggling, and help bear their burdens. 

So on this MD, my thoughts are to all of the hopeful mothers to be.  My prayers are with you and you are constantly on my mind.  You are the ones that will make the best mothers, there is no doubt.  Happy mother's day and keep on keeping on!  xo